The 21st Century Non-Mother

The 21st Century Non-Mother

In the early 20th century,
Mothers told their children stories of the blood sacrifice they made;
"she was formed from materials taken out of mamma's blood,
That is the reason why mamma's hands are so thin and white
And mamma's cheeks so pale"

I cannot make this sacrifice in the same way,
Even in the moments where I let my guard down
And really, REALLY want to
So I make my own sacrifices
I will give my own life-blood not to make a body
But to keep one alive
Keep one safe
I will give my own strength for yours
Envelop your own body with mine
Wrap expansive feathered wings around you
For warmth, and softness, and quiet.
I will, I have ruined my body
And will continue to do so
The paler my cheeks, the more frail my hands
The more I can express how much I feel

The stories ended with children,
Wide eyed and teary wrapping their small arms around her;
"oh mamma, I never loved you so much before"

I never loved you so much before